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You know what Heather?

Dec. 31st, 2003 | 10:47 am
mood: annoyed annoyed
music: Americian Hi-Fi (Flavor of the Week)

I think i'm gonna start making my entries just friends only too. I don't want to live with the worry that someone is gonna read something personal that i don't want them to read. Anyone who is on my friends list is ok, but if you're someone i don't know and you read my livejournal, you're gonna have to talk to me about adding you on my list. So from now on.... sorry people. FRIENDS ONLY! Yep, yep, yep!

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Mar. 17th, 2003 | 08:06 pm
mood: confused confused
music: Jennifer Lopez/LL Cool J (All I Have)

Ahhhhh! Just when things were getting back to normal! I'm waiting patiently for Kenny to make a move, and in pops someone else who wants me. Christy told me that a guy, who must not be named, said that he was thinking about breaking up with his girlfriend and asking me out :-/. I've wanted this guy since my freshman year, but... Kenny!.... ya know? *sighes* The thing is.... which one wants me for the right reasons... and... most importantly... who do i want the most? Ahhh! Why do things have to be so complicated? Oh well.... tomorrow is another day i guess..... more decisions.... i'm not gonna stress myself with this matter until it really happens :-/

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Such a beautiful day...

Mar. 16th, 2003 | 04:43 pm
mood: happy happy
music: Burt Bacharach (Say a Little Prayer For You)

It feels great to have spring wheather for once... not hot nor cool air, warm sunshine... *sighes* I think i'm gonna go take a walk in the woods and find a nice little spot to sit down at and write poetry and just... chill for awhile :)

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Hmmm.... so true.. so true.

Mar. 13th, 2003 | 10:08 pm
mood: amused amused
music: Hehehe.....tremendous animalistic energy eh? :P


You have no trouble attracting men. You dress for your mate and will use your seductive, hypnotic eyes to dazzle and captivate your chosen partner. You are the type of woman that has a tremendous animalistic energy that can lure and tantalize, but you also have a temper that can be explosive. You are extremely demanding when it comes to the art of making love, and you ack patience if your mate doesn't satisfy you. You will be loyal and true blue as long as you don't detect weakness in your lover.

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Thanks for sending me this one Christy :)

Mar. 13th, 2003 | 05:16 pm
mood: amused amused
music: Avril Lavigne (Anything But Ordinary)


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God damn it.....

Mar. 12th, 2003 | 09:23 pm
mood: sleepy sleepy
music: The Cardigans (Love Fool)

I hate AOL. They suspended my screenname. Now i can't use it at all. I'm using an old screenname:


And not to mention i lost all of my friends screennames.... if you are one of my friends and IM me alot, then could you leave me your screenname in comments or email it to me? I want to talk to someone. lol :P Fuck AOL... :þ

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Mar. 11th, 2003 | 06:48 pm
mood: blah blah
music: Christina A. (Beautiful)

oh god. shoot me in the brain now. the tv just asked me if i didnt sleep well last night. and now it is telling me that it is because of my mattress, and that their mattress can solve my sleep problems. i am going to invent a mattress that has a face mask and a recirculating system so that you can slowly start breathing your own carbon dioxide until you pass out. or maybe i will just start drinking heavily?

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So weird....

Mar. 10th, 2003 | 08:11 pm
mood: high high
music: The Animals (House of the Rising Sun)

I thought i'd love my week off... doing nothing for a change. *sighes* But now i'm getting bored... and it's only the first day :/. This is bad. I guess that's what i get for running myself to death. I should be trying to get back the hours of sleep i lost during last week, but i can't sleep. Not now. It's so weird... when i dated Robbie i started to neglect some friends... now that i'm not dating him anymore it seems like it's harder to get those friends back :/. Kayla seems to be so far away from me now. We've been best friends since kindergarten. When i say hi to her... it's not the same. It's not the friendly hi i remember. *sighes* I'm never gonna let a guy get in the way of my friendships again. I hate when i lose friends. It hurts excruciatingly. oh well.......

OH! And any of you guys that talk to Robbie, tell him i want my cd back. I think he still has it in his cd case. Thanks.

That tis all... for now.......

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Lying sack of shit...

Mar. 9th, 2003 | 09:33 pm
mood: bitchy bitchy
music: TLC (Damaged)

.... he didn't have to lie to me. I would be perfectly fine with this situation, him getting a new girl friend and all....except for the pack of fuckin' lies he told me when he broke up with me. "I don't want, and don't need a girlfriend right now." WTF? Then what do you call Jennifer dumbass? "I want to be free my Senior year." WTF? Do you call that being free and single? HA! Very funny! Poor Jennifer. She's such a nice girl. I hope he doesn't do this shit to her too. I hate to say it, but now that i think back..... i didn't love him. I never loved him! I don't give a shit anymore. All i care about is getting together with Kenny. Kenny is all i need, and i've loved him since i can remember. If only i could see him more often.... Here is a poem deticated to him.....

A Silver Lining

I gave into the scum,
I made him think he’d won,
What a fool was I,
For being so blind?
I can’t believe I didn’t see,
The jerk standing right in front of me,
Why did I give into this boy,
Who treated me like a little toy?

There is no joy in this folly,
For a girl who was thrown for a loop,
In a thing we call love,
Because, why should there be joy,
When there is no sun?
Why should I be happy,
When there is no fun?
Why don’t I just pull out my gun?

Because… in this rash haste,
There is a silver lining…
A man of men who is brightly shining,
In my dreams and in my heart,
It would kill me if he couldn’t or wouldn’t be apart,
Of my love,
As in… I love him,
I’d do anything for him.

If only It were shone,
The love that he possesses,
The burning desire for his love,
Would be shone by thine own kisses,
How long I’d dwell in his arms,
With warmth all around me,
I wouldn’t want to leave his side,
Until the world stands still and lets us be.

Minutes pass, hours fly,
So I’d be there with my love,
Staring at the starry sky,
And my last breathe taken on this night,
Would be by his gentle kiss,
And finally I’d sleep in a peaceful bliss….

Kinda corny.... but it's from the heart.

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What is your inner monkey my child?.....

Mar. 6th, 2003 | 11:40 am
mood: amused amused
music: Lucy Woodward (Dumb Girl)

Scary Monkey
You are Scary Monkey! You are an angry and
addictive monkey who has taken over the
airwaves at Invader Zim's secret hideout, at
least when GIR has the remote. We're not sure
what you do exactly, besides stare in a scary
way. And sometime growl. You are
mysteeeeeerious. Is that some kind of
attraction for goth girls and brainless robots?

What's YOUR Inner Monkey?
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